I’m loving it….

These days I am feeling very good… my every friend knows that I am writing blog on my own feelings. This is not a reason for my happiness but the reason is my blog somewhere effecting others thoughts too.

Usually I write my feelings which every one feels in their life but never enjoyed or noticed, but now when they read my blogs they realized that they also felt the same in their life but they dint gave any importance to them. Now they started enjoyed their feelings and moment they encounter everyday and the most important thing is they share it with me and says “I also felt same like your so and so blog, if they write blog they will share this moment 1st”. It's very good feeling when your small work affects other people’s thoughts in a positive manner. 

Ahha really I am enjoying this very much. I’m loving it….

Love stories, said or unsaid

Who said love only happens once in life… I do not agree to this thought. I saw many people who had fallen in love many times.. even I have many love story of my own single one life… I can say one thing for sure that all these moment everyone have in his/her life but never notice it… but I think  we should live all the small moments of life because these become our happy memory album. Here I am going to narrate my all love stories  

My first love……

I fallen in love with my father …Yes, he was my 1st love.. As per child psychology in age of 5-6 every child fall in with their opposite sex parent So I fell in love with my Father.. hmmm I do not know how explain but yes Its true… He did all the good things for me that he can do for my better life..even I could not imagine my life without my father…
I remember all the thing when my fallen ill, that time my father helped to getting ready for school..he used to cook our breakfast when my mother helps us in getting ready for school..He was my friend when there was no one to share..He was the 1st who asked me “what you want to do in your life”. When my complained my father about my naughty habits he used to say “her naughty incident made my house home.”
When I was in 10th Standard I wake up at four am for exam preparation he always wake up before me and make Tea for me so that I will not get sleep again … He always gave me extra pocket money at the same time he knows that my mumma gave it to me…
When I started cooking he used to stand with me in kitchen so that never think that cooking is a boring task of kitchen but it’s a different thing that I still feels it’s a boring task of kitchen :-) ..whenever I do some experiment with foods he used to taste 1st and appreciate it..
Till now he used to get up before me and prepare tea for us…even he cook breakfast for us whenever last day I was in fast… I love u papa …

My love for a Star

In my teenage I have fallen in love with Bollywood Star “Sanjay Dutt”…I can say it was my 1st crush… He was so dashing in his age…He played many roles in hindi movies I used to watch his every movie and on the same time I was imagining that his co-star was only me…Start thinking of him day and night..He always came in my dreams…Yeahhh I still remember one of his movie “Saajan” and its song “Mera dil bhi kitna Pagal hai ye Pyar jo tumse karta hai…..” I always thought that this song was only for me… 

                                                                                                        

3rd story of my life.....

Nature’s love

Today’s evening was an usual evening, I was coming from my office and definitely one question will rise in your mind that why this girl was saying it was a different one from that of everyday happening….

Yeah!!! Let me just describe it!!!

Today, when I left my office, I was having a feeling like “oh!! Again, I have to travel alone”. When this thing was running in my thoughts, suddenly I felt it. Yes, it was a cold breeze that flew my hair and it looked like, it was telling me that “I am here for you”. It gave me a good feel and then I have noticed the surroundings near me. I was walking over a lane which was full covered with dried leaves (due to last night’s heavy storm) and leaves were starting flying slowly due to the heavily blowing wind..


I was walking over them by watching all these things and that lane was free from traffic and people.. At that time, I could feel the smell of green leaves which were still on the tree (that lane was full of trees).. On the other hand, I could feel the beauty of dried leaves on the lane… Somewhere the wind chimes were also ringing and it added a great sound effect at that beautiful moment.

I was enjoying the nature’s love and the cold air was coming towards me like that it wants to give a big hug with lots of love.. I can feel the air all over my body and it looked like it was hugging me with love… I can feel that air which is nearby my neck and hair, like it was giving me its existence and it was telling me that “Monica, never feel alone, I am always with you”.

Modern Laxmi Bai on Delhi Road.

Few months ago, I met my ex-colleague. He called me as "Laxmi Bai”...I was surprised and asked him that "Why are you calling me with that name...”. He replied to me one of the funniest incident of my life which happened two days back before I met him. Oh God, I was surprised again that he saw me?????... Actually, he saw me in the middle of traffic while crossing the lane.

Actually on that day, it was around 7.00 pm in the evening, we were on the way to Mother Dairy Road in a heavy traffic...Me and my friend were coming back to home from our office.. It was in Noida, so we have to take bus for Main Mother Dairy and then we have to cross two traffic light to reach another bus. There we were waiting for a red signal so that we could cross the road. After 5 minutes of waiting, the Red signal opened but no vehicle stopped for that. But we want to cross the road but couldn’t...........We were in a hurry to go to Mother Dairy Ice-cream parlor...

Then in that Red signal, I decided to cross the road. In that traffic, I kept hold of my friend’s hand tightly because I know that she can’t do it alone. I had started to walk in traffic and showed a hand to the coming traffic. The 1st one was an auto rickshaw who came near to me. I said to the driver that "Ruko!!! Dikhta nahi kya? Red signal ho gaya hai (Stop!! Don’t you look at the Red signal)" with a big smile.. The driver was shocked and replied something, but we didn’t listen to him...There in that traffic everyone was watching us because of our foolishness (actually because of our daring hehhehehe)...

I was smiling and everyone started smiling at me and we moved from there.. In all this, I felt like I was a lion that crossed her way and everyone scared while seeing me...

Now we have to cross another road...I took the same step again and but this time it was not the auto rickshaw but a mini bus... It was not me this time but the driver said to me that "Ye to mai hu jisne bus rok diya koi aur hota to chada deta tum par (It’s me who had stopped the bus, if any other driven means may be hit you at this time.)" but he was also smiling at me and me also did.

My friend was also very laughing at me and keep on telling that you are crazy...Really I was feeling like crazy at that time as well as a Lion oh no a Lioness...............

Felt What a Romance is Really, At Last!!!

Earlier, I used to think that I am more practical than emotional. I don't trust in Love and love stories..My mind will always says me that love is made only for movies and TV programs..and not a single emotion of love can touch me because this is not possible in real life..
You may think like that I have created a cocoon in which a single emotion of LOVE can't enter in my heart because I think that Love only hurts and this cocoon became my original thought.....

Without my knowledge I loved all those things which does not exist in real life in my point of view..I forget that this is only a cocoon which I created to protect me from LOVE feel..
One fine day, one of my friend introduced me to inner Monica, who is a romantic girl, who love salsa dance, romantic love story, romantic movies, romantic TV programs, romantic songs and loves the one who express a real love and proposals....
But earlier I thought that I am not a romantic one...I love only white and pink color..I love slow songs but later only I came to know that whatever I heard all are very romantic songs.
He simply explained these things to me and said it is only to tease me. But his joke made me understand myself more than before...

Life should have a Re-wind button!!!

From the last three days, I am just trying to write something but I felt like I am puzzled. I am totally confused about the angle, I should narrate the same so that everyone could have the interest to read it...But I could not find the way..I tried to write it thrice but failed..And now, I found the way to write in the way that I should write...

From last few days, I am trying to describe how we met each other...Lol. It sounds like "Jab We Met", a Bollywood movie name.. Actually, I was not clear on what title I should give to this bolg and but I got a perfect title now "Jab We Met"....describing how we met in blog. I feel, it’s very difficult to express but I will try picturize my level best.

First I got his contact through the outdated social networking site (Orkut), then we contacted via mobile and then started to date...After few days, he told me that he is going to describe about our fist meet.

Here are his words shared with me...

On a beautiful morning in Chidambaram, Tamilnadu, I had my tea in a canteen..I was sitting in one corner of the canteen and the sun light came in through a window and fell on my face..The sunlight got reflected from the nose ring and traveled towards a guy who was sitting on the same canteen. This incident had captured his attention towards me..He was very much attracted and felt like talking to me but couldn't found reason for that...At that time, he took the sugar and was mixing it with the tea but it was slipped on his hand.. He was trying to capture my attention though that but failed. Then he prayed to God that "She should be in my class only"..

In the classroom, he was sitting in the last bench and the entrance was near where he was sitting. So when I entered into the class, he was first who looked at me..He was very happy to see me in his class...But still he didn't came and spoke to me..He just started following me and noticing all my activities..

The days were passed with boring lectures, interesting practicals. I used to write all my assignments in the evening and it was a good experience because I found so many new friends at that time.

I was unaware of all his activities and interest..I was trying to complete my works on time and keep myself to spend some time with friends..But it was not the case with him. He was so busy in gathering information about me.

He did lots of gimmicks for getting my information. One among them is that he had stolen my ID Card from University’s Admin Office and copied my data from that.. He had compared his height with mine because to make sure that his height was same as me..Regularly starring at me wherever I go..Changed his batch from his current PCP to next PCP so that he can meet me in next PCP too..

Like that our PCP came to an end but we didn't had a word with each other.. When I get to know all these stories later, I felt like how could I missed all these things and I wished that I should go to my past and see them again.

Dedicated to my Love

Dedicated to my Love 

No matter how much he is muscular & stronger in strength... But by heart he is very weak..... He can fight with the world for me, But he cries When he sees a single tear in my eyes...

He is hard, He is rough, He is cruel, but there is a child in him who never wanted to grow... He can be awake  hundreds of sleepless nights for me, but when he gets tired, he needs my lap to sleep...
I Love my Man, Though I love him little, he will give a bouquet of love in return.... ♥ ♥ ♥

~ Dedicate to all the guys Out here, Like & share, Let them know u care ~

Simply writing..

Today I don’t have anything special to write but I still I want to write but still I want to write… ;-) because I know it’s the only way to express my feelings… Right now I am in my room….my TV is also on but listening songs on Ipod …ahaha fully wasting electricity….okiess when I am in my room then let me describe my room also..in a corner of my room I have dressing table…in one book shelf my two favorite teddy bears are also there…some photos collection..one more my bed that is totally messed up and I am messed up with mobile, ipod lead & my book…and after all this I am writing blog on my mobile… My mumma is cooking Chicken in kitchen…she asked me to help her in cooking but I said I am reading book ;-) … Please someone tell my mumma that one cant study till exams are not on head.. Here I am writing my new blog, listening songs aha my favorite one, watching TV and keep on observing surrounding and my thoughts also… OMG how much work I have to do…OMG please help me… Ahaha suddenly my hero came to my thought..He is telling sorry for not calling today because I had a lots of works to do..But I am missing you too much… aha I m blushing… I got a new topic..TELEPATHY life will be very easy if we have the power of Telepathy..we can convey our thoughts and feelings and most important any message to our loved one without wasting any time through our own mind…do you believe on these kind of power………… If I have the same then I would be always busy with my hero…no one can stop me for doing this…

I am ok now….

I am ok now….

One day I went to see one of my relative…I don’t know anything about them. I don’t know how exactly they were related to me...It was a big hospital…I can feel the smell of medicine and some other chemicals…I felt uncomfortable in that atmosphere... In one of the room, I saw a lady lying on bed with a small cute new born baby…Also, I saw a 5 year old girl standing near to her bed and continuously starring at the new born. She was very quiet and I guessed that she was a daughter of that family… Suddenly, when girl touched the new born, her father scolded her for that and the mother was indifferent towards her. The parents were scared and worried much about their new born than her…I could feel her tears behind her silence...I could see the insecurity for her, but don’t know how to handle the situation, so I could be only an eyewitness of her situation…I saw that she again tried to touch the new born and again her father scolded her… After this, she rushed out from the room and her parents didn't bother on what she was doing… I couldn’t bear to this situation and I rushed behind her, but it was too late because she met with an accident at that time and she was no more…She was very small...she doesn’t deserve that...How it could happens with her… I am ok now…Oh that was only me as the 5 year old child who died in her childhood…Now I am grown up...Now I am ok…

Sharma gae mai hai hai...

In my life, I never had an experience of blushing at any time and I never thought of it too. But all my friends want to see that how I will look like when I encounter with the feeling of it and even me too want to experience it...I had felt it once due to my Hero but at that time I just tried to escape myself from that situation…

Actually it happened when we were in Chidambaram for our PCP, we both were attending our practical classes and we were in two different classes. My Hero left his book with me but for his class he was in need of that book. So after finding time he called me and said to bring that book to his class and give him in person. I went to his class but I couldn't able to give it to him. Because his professor didn't gave permission to give it.  So I get back to my class. 


After one hour, the class got over, every boy of his class came to me and said "we know that you both have true love and now tell us how you both found each other…” Oh God, that was the situation when I was blushing for the first time. At the same time, I was shocked and having a big question to myself that "what’s going on here?”, "What they are talking about?". I asked everyone about this but they were teasing me.. 


At last, one of them said when you came to class just 10 minutes before, they were talking about our relationship and suddenly my Hero said to them that "If my love is true then she will come here within 10 minutes” and you came. 


OMG………really I was blushing...I tried to tell them the truth but they were not ready to listen...they were moving around me and repeating the single line "His love is true…. His love is true….” I was having smile on my face and wanted to escape from there. 


After all this, I went out of the institute alone and he was talking to his friends and they were still on the same topic…my lodge was just 20 feet away from institute…suddenly I saw him on a bike (there we don’t have our own bike) and he came to me & stopped his bike and I didn't thought for a single second and rushed on bike…We took 5 minutes ride of it and gave the bike back to his friend.. 

Now everyone who were teasing at that time gave a complement that 

"we both are just made for each other”.

Sometimes.......

Sometimes you just can't tell anybody how you really feel

Sometimes you just can't tell anybody how you really feel...

- Not because you don't know why ..
- Not because you don't trust them ..
- Not because you don't know your purpose..

But because you cant find the right words to make them "UNDERSTAND" :')

Love Feelings............

I feel like I'm just a small town girl, living in this lonely world. But then someone happens to step into that world. He make her smile and blush over everything. He give this little girl butterflies like no one has before. {Speechless} would describe her at this point in the day. You know when you have so much to say but you don't know where to start. You don't want to reveal too much, but don't want to say too little. You’re excited and scared at the same time. Your stomach jumps and your heart start to beat out of your chest. Everything feels so fresh and new. This could be the beginning of something great or something amazing. Few of you know what I am referring to. Even fewer know {who} I am referring to. He may not even know. Yes ladies and gentlemen, I am referring to a man. A beautiful, brave man. Oh how my heart is fluttering. I feel ridiculous but at the same time I feel as if this is the most excitement my heart has been all year. I instantly smile when I see a text from this person (he needs a nickname since I will be changing it). The content of the text doesn't seem to matter, I just feel amazing knowing that I crossed his mind, even if it was for that second to send the text. This person keeps making me blush, especially after I found out he reads my blog. My cheeks turned rose colored red. We will call him Charming or prince for short. He asked if it was worth it to risk it all for him. Obviously he read my blog post found here asking if it was worth it. My answer to his question is, yes! If you could only see my face right now you would probably laugh. I haven't been open like this in a long time. I feel as if I was closed off, but now I am free to express myself.

Ekk Deewana tha - in my life..

ekk deewana tha - in my life

Yesterday night, I saw the movie "”Ekk Deewana Tha”, a bollywood hindi movie..I liked it very much better I should say that I loved that movie very much...it was a romantic movie…Please don’t think that I am going to give you a review of that movie along with star ratings and all…No no ways ;-) ..but I am going to tell you that why I liked that Movie..Why I was so desperate to watch it…

Some time back my Hero was in a get together along with his friends. His friends asked about me at that time...and shyly he replied to them about me and also told that I am 1 year older than him..Then his friends started teasing him for that and told him that his story was like one of the telugu movie. But that time, I didn't showed any interest to know what exactly the movie all about because it’s a telugu movie and I don’t know telugu…

Few months back, I came to know that movie is going to released in Hindi. From that second onwards I have started my counting to see that. And finally the day came and the film got released.. I went to see that movie with one of my friend.

When the movie started, I felt like "Oh it is a good romantic movie" but after some time...I found that there are many things which were very similar to what happened our real life...like...I am 1 year elder then my men. He has a great feeling of love on me from the first day he saw me..He said that to me very fast but at that time I couldn’t able to think of that…As movie, I don’t want to be in that kind of relationship with him because I am very fearful that he only loves me but I always want to be a good friend of him…

After some time, we went to Chennai together by train and we came close to each other and we spend a great moment. From that time onwards, we were more comfortable and after that we were more comfortable with each other and we started spending more and more time with each other..

That’s the story how we started. The movie got ended up in missing their loved ones but not mine. It’s in progress. Hopefully, it will also get a happy ending like that movie taken by the Hero in that "Ekk Deewana Tha" movie….. :)